Yeah, I kinda realized that I’m slacking on here again.  LOL

So, what is new in the world of Phaedra?  Things are going well group wise.  We have a name – Silver Chalice and Steel Horn Circle.  Baldurson actually came up with it and I will be totally honest and say that I have a hard time remembering it.  I tend to shorten it down to either Steel Horn or SCSHC.  I’m curious to see how things continue because I’m thinking that there will be a big shake up coming soon in the form of past problems leaking into present situations.   Nothing too serious, I’m just feeling cautious.  =D

I’ve learned that I have another spirit guide, who is awfully nice in giving answers and not beating around the bush.  He is very helpful and I look forward to learning about him and strengthening our relationship.

Nyx has been very calm and motherly, although I keep finding raven feathers everywhere.  I’ve started putting them on my altar and added one to my wand.  I think she’s trying to tell me something but I just don’t know what.  I suppose that with time I’ll figure it out.  Lucifer, on the other hand is not as noisy as he was.  I’m sure part of it is that on Wed. night I made an offering to him, Nyx, and Inari and everyone got the same thing.  He does like to be unique.  However, I’ve taken to also making a daily offering of incense and saying: “For the darkness, the light, and everything in between.”  I always feel so calm and centered after that, and the light scent of incence wafts through the house making everything seem beautifully sacred.

For the past week or so I’ve been using a binaural meditation that is supposed to help with lucid dreaming and astral projection.  As I  understand it, binaural meditations use sound frequencies to put your brain into different states, such as alpha, delta, and theta.  I was hoping it would help me become more aware of my dreams and when they are prophetic, but so far all it’s done is make me more apt to remember my dreams and make them much more vivid.  I’m no more aware that I’m dreaming than I normally am, and I’m certainly not in control of them.  I think that the lucid part will come with time.  I’ve always known that I am a heavy dreamer and I thought I was remembering a lot of my dreams…. however I’m aware of twice as many dreams as normal.  Some of them are rather crack-addled, but some are just ‘hmmmm’ worthy.  Although, now that I think about it whenever I dream of Heika or my grandmother I’m usually aware that it’s a dream, and I certainly did change the course of events in one of my recent dreams.  So, perhaps the meditation is working better than I thought.  Again, time will tell.

I think I’ve finally stumbled over a missing piece of the spirituality puzzly for myself.   Dove and I have this crazy idea about pantheons and pangaea.  I don’t want to say too much because this is, as far as I can tell, a unique idea and I’m not entirely certain where we’re going with it.  I’m being overly cautious again because I know that we don’t know where this will lead.

I’m rather proud of myself that I have been faithfully keeping to the Sabbats and being true to my spiritual self.   Now I just need to get time to do more work on the website (perhaps websites) and get a few more projects finished.

Oh, I almost forgot!  Gina and I went to a healing drumming circle for a friend of ours birthday.  It was awesome!  The woman in charge had an absolutely amazing voice and the friend in question had friends and family there from all aspects of her life.   There was, of course, healing done; both given and recieved.  There was also a lot of awesome networking that took place and I now feel a much closer kinship to the local community.  Hooray!

I have a few people I’d love to get back in touch with but I don’t know if they’ll talk to me.  So, I add this at the end of my blog post and perhaps they’ll see it and know that I’m thinking about them.  Past hurts are washed away and we can talk again and start anew, wiser and more open to each other.  If you think this is about you, it very well could be.  Drop me a line. =)